Watching my children have children has been so amazing. Seeing them as parents to a little child….to watch them nurture them and see them bring out laughter and smiles from such this tiny little creation is such a blessing. I now have 4 grandsons and they are all so unique and special. The oldest is talking and I can understand him sometimes….but there are times where I need his mommy to translate for me. But he calls on the phone and says “Grandma Mary?” And a smile emerges from my face and I am excited to hear from this little person. But then I will say “Hi Kenny” and then he starts talking much faster than my old ears can translate his young speech. But I can hear the excitement in his voice. He is excited about such small things….everyday brings new wonders to it….When did it change? When do people stop seeing all the amazing everyday things that happen? When do we stop getting excited about all the little mundane things of everyday life?
I wish I could see every part of my day the way that Kenny does… with a newness and wonder that excites me. As I got older it changed in my life. I mean I still get up at night and look out at the stars and think, WOW! God is so awesome…. He made all of that, the expanse and beauty that lies before my eyes is breathtaking. And then I think…man I bet God has the best view of the stars. Someday I hope we see that view, from His perspective. To see it like I am seeing it for the first time…
As I sit here late at night and the day has ended and it is getting way past my bed time and the house is quite except for the dishwasher running and the hum of my computer and it is just me….I am in awe of the moment, of the quite that envelopes me….and then all I have to do is talk to God and He is right here with me. And it brings tears to my eyes to think that God, the most Holy and powerful God, would take time to spend in the quiet of my home with me. My heart flutters and the tears come as I just sit and listen for His voice and soak in the moment. And I think about my grandsons, how blessed I am to have all 4 of them and how much joy they bring into my life. How excited I am when I get to see them and to think that God created each of them…
Psalm 139:13-20New International Version (NIV)
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
WOW! I never tire of reading that passage of scripture….it grabs me with awe and wonder and I am so thankful that God allowed me to experience my own 4 children to see those moments of awe and wonder on each of their little faces when they got to experience something new. I pray that everyday, I would take that moment and sit with my Lord and just be enveloped in His presence and carry it with me through out my day and share that awe and wonder of Him with those around me…
Mary Catherine Jackowski
MOHLOM is more than a shop or a business it is my hearts cry. MOHLOM stands for More of HIM, Less of Me. As I grow older that is my desire for God to fill me and overflow to those around me.